How Did I Get So Lucky?
Before I met Jules, I couldn’t tell you a time that I hadn’t felt insecure. My inner critic ran wild and free and was rarely positive, especially when I saw my reflection in the mirror. It wasn’t just my appearance that disappointed me, it was pretty much the whole package! What did I have to offer???
My relationships were completely co-dependent; I had no self worth and so couldn’t receive love. I blamed my partners for not loving me enough, then as the relationships crumbled, I clung so tightly as the fear of losing them and being alone was immeasurable.
When the universe brought me the gift of pregnancy it also brought with it a state of panic and anxiety. My belief in my inability to do anything well and my belief that I was unsupported and unsafe in the world made it a difficult and lonely time. It follows that I had post-natal depression, and a ten year relationship with anti-depressants developed.
Of course throughout these years I had read every self-development book, trying desperately to find some peace. Surely now into my mid thirties I would start to have some acceptance of who I was??? I had actually achieved much, and yet the insecurities and lack of energy hovered overhead like a thick grey rain-cloud..
I needed help, and eventually my prayers led me to Jules.
The first thing that I received from Jules was HOPE – and a PROMISE that everything would and could change. It wasn’t always going to be like this!
For the only time that I could remember I felt truly supported and safe!
As my journey continues, Jules’ amazing system enables me to clearly see what my emotional feelings and reactions are to past and present situations and people. It also gives me the awareness to know why I had these emotional reactions.
Now, I can THANK the years of insecurity, self-hate, self-destruction because all of it led me to Jules O’Neill which in turn led me to this moment: NOW, and the amazingness of my journey in this moment. I feel so blessed that I could experience this healing in this lifetime as ME!
Jules O’Neill’s workshop that I attended was a turning point in my life. Beforehand I felt worn out, disconnected from who I am and like my life had lost its luster.
Now I’m firmly back in the driver’s seat, with a full tank of fuel and the open road ahead of me – woohoo!
Six weeks ago I felt like I was having an absolute breakdown. I was emotionally a mess, my husband was away on a conference for four days, I had just given up smoking, I was working long hours and I had lost touch with my daughter who I decided was the devil incarnated.
When I started working with Jules O’Neill, I was struggling in my role as a carer. I had been caring for my husband who had been ill and unable to work for some time. He required a great deal of care but was a very proud man who did not want to need this sort of support.